Lauren Knafla.

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 01:35:09 GMT

lauren is a doormat.

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 00:49:00 GMT

i can't stop crying and i've spent the whole night with courtney talking about how everything has started falling apart since sarah's been gone.

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 01:22:55 GMT

i don't like the new livejournal format. the other day when i didn't go to school on monday i wish i would have known i was going to be sick so i could have slept in. i don't feel like going to school tomorrow just like every other day only i know that tomorrow i'm getting out at 1:15 and i don't have to take my algebra test. only i wish i could sleep in. i am going downtown with my mom and tammy and then to a neurology appointment because you know.. there's something wrong with my head. i've been thinking about trying out a new breed of music, go back to wannabe seventh grade and start listening to the unseen and horrorpops again. not going back to the locust and some girls. no i'm just kidding about all of that.

love you.

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 22:19:16 GMT

i don't have diabetes and i'm getting my contacts tomorrow and i went

people don't like it, but i do.

also, i just found

i did not take that myself.

miss this.

on another note, my intarnet addiction has moved from myspace to ebay.

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 00:57:18 GMT

The farther I rise, the slower it gets. Up to the pinnacle, and then it forgets. It folds back on itself, and I am reborn. A big, brand new baby with a nosebleed. The closer you are, the quicker it hits. It gathers your pieces, and blows them to bits. Thrown back into space, to settle again. A new kind is ready, and then it begins.

Saw Little Miss Sunshine. Saw every movie in theaters. My eyes are progressively getting worse by the minute and in a few days I will have contacts and new clear glasses that I'll end up hating and I will have chopped all my hair off to look like this if I'm lucky. And there's always next weekend for the next time we'll speak, and there's always next year for the next time we meet.

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 00:38:13 GMT

I'm going to start an offline journal and see how that works out instead of this one since I don't like it but feel like I always want to say something. I have two new boyfriends named Dave Eggers and Karl Blau. My mom and I are living together beautifully and I saved up over $70 in pennies and quarters for new jeans that is now going into my bank account to add to my car savings. Car savings. I haven't bought anything the past four times I've been the/a mall. My mom wants me to plan a trip for her and me to go to New York City over SB'07. I guess my mom thinks she's the shit now since we get along lately. I guess I might go to Amsterdam with Bink in May.

Jordane came home so I went to Golden China with her last night. The thirty minutes I spent with her wasn't enough and her 19th birthday is in seven days. Teasing my hair doesn't work to make it thicker but just mats down within three minutes. I wash my face and brush my teeth too often. I can't remember the last day I haven't worn a wife beater. No matter what I do to my hair, its ends are fried and split. I want to chop it all off to my head but I don't want to seem like I'm.. stealing Charlotte's hair or something. Charlotte, if I chop off all my hair, I'm not copying or stealing your hair.

Somebody call me.

P.S. Myspace is gone for good this time.

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 22:57:07 GMT

By tomorrow night I will have read every piece of work written by Chuck Palahniuk because I'm a freak and I don't know what it is about him that drives me crazy. All of my animals have gone anorexic and my dog never shuts the fuck up anymore. Lately a lot of songs have made me want to cry a lot but I haven't, which is good, except for the time I realized I don't have any friends but I only cried for about .3 seconds. Tomorrow is ClubRush and I will join seven clubs. Color is going well. I have an assload of an assload of homework that I'm not going to do tonight. A lot of algebraic graphing and biology that means nothing to me. There is so much shit on my bed you can't sit or lay on it withought being poked by a clothes hanger or corner of a box. Now, not only are you lost in a blanket of snow but you're lost in a heap of wife beaters and sweatpants. Dad and I are going out to eat tonight. Where? I've been dreaming the weirdest dreams for the past couple of days. I have deja vu every day.

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 23:59:09 GMT

I wish Sarah would stop being five hours ahead of me so I could call her whenever I want to, instead of realizing it's too late every time I do. Perfect time to call her at one in the morning. I miss her and I want to talk to her. Madeline got her license finally, so no more complaining. Today was utterly awful and I am not going camping anymore because my menstrual problems got in the way. Tomorrow is good and fun with Tyler Cross so.. great. Headaches creep up on me a lot lately, and I keep hearing "Wraith Pinned to the Mist and Other Games" by Of Montreal on the radio but with different words to the liking of Outback Steakhouse.

I want some Hudson jeans off ebay for 99 cents. Oh, and it's now official that two thirds of my best friends have moved away.

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 00:49:42 GMT

I have been drawing a lot again lately, maybe I'll post some things but probably not, and now I have texting. Text, text, texting is bad. Anyway, I hope I get that job and I can make some money by going to the movies. Also, The Fiery Furnaces are taking over my life right now along with Eisley and Casiotone for the Painfully Alone. I watched High School Musical today. I'm going camping with Elizabeth this weekend. I need to get up early in the morning and shave my legs.

Cookies and cream ice cream hello.

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 20:12:02 GMT

I've been out walking. I don't do too much talking these days, these days. These days I seem to think a lot about the things that I forgot to do, and all the times I had the chance to. I've stopped my rambling. I don't do too much gambling these days, these days. These days I seem to think about how all the changes came about my ways, and I wonder if I'll see another highway. I had a lover. I don't think I'll risk another these days, these days. And if I seem to be afraid to live the life that I have made in song, it's just that I've been losing so long. I've stopped my dreaming. I won't do too much scheming these days, these days. These days I sit on corner stones and count the time in quarter tones to ten. Please don't confront me with my failures. I had not forgotten them.

I love "This Is the Carter" by Lil' Wayne and everytime my phone rings I get to hear "King of the Rodeo" by Kings of Leon. My mom bought me a razr. Tonight is Red Bowl finally forever and Jordane leaves in five days forever. I miss my dad. He smells like George's house and my whole house smells like Old Spice and baked ziti. Madeline, Kelly, and Ilya are in my drawing two class so it is good and so is graphics and biology and algebra 3 are pretty boring. I'm struggling without my normal friends. Apparently I am Ilya's other half now or something. That's cool, right?

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 22:15:40 GMT

all i want to do with the next four days is this

and see these people:

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 22:29:08 GMT

i'm saving up for new bedroom furniture and then a car so i can drive to work when i get a job. i'm selling my clothes and elizabeth has given me twenty dollars for some, but i think that's all i'll get.

i have nowhere to sleep tonight because we had an exterminator come today and i had to put all of my shit from my room on my bed. one more day until sp and golden china with jordane and madeline. four more days until i get my hair cut. five more days until school. three more minutes until the suite life of zack and cody.

"..and every time i told you that, it was an accident. accident isn't the right word, but it's the first word that comes to mind."

and p.s. you've got all these utensil bands, right? i mean you've got the knife and spoon, but where the hell are all the fork bands? i mean, come on.

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 20:50:57 GMT

entry! my cats need to be fed. i really like the song "fidelity" by regina spektor even if so does half a million people. i listen to "middle distance runner" in my sleep. my hygiene is doing great right now even if my health isn't. my stomach has been halfway up my throat for the past couple of days. good news, good news. i spent $45 on shit for my face and a hat yesterday at the new super target. brilliant brunette by john freida is brilliant. i haven't seen anyone since i've been home apart from rachelle, during a trip to bruster's considering she was working. oh, kyle stopped by last night for about ten minutes at 11:30. hope to god i get my hair cut soon.

1. fugitives and refugees by chuck palahniuk - $8
2. tumble home by amy hempel - $12 or $3
3. reasons to live by amy hempel - $14 or $7
4. welcome to the monkey house by kurt vonnegut - $14 or $6
5. the ice at the bottom of the world by mark richard - $12 or $6
6. a heartbreaking work of staggering genius by dave eggers - $15 or $2

on saturday i'm going into charlotte with jordane for the day so i will see will and call tim and charlotte, if you don't call me tomorrow and you just want me to come see you on saturday, i will.

tehehe there's this twelve-year-old girl, well she's probably thirteen now or something, who has lots of sex and i saw that she viewed my profile because i have a trick on my profile now, so i IMed her to see who she was and her screen name is you DO yo hustle and she was all like, "who is this?" hahaha. oh duh.

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 17:59:29 GMT

$3

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$30

soon to be ordered:

$85

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 00:52:43 GMT

Hiiii, bye for a couple weeks or something.

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 21:24:33 GMT

I'm talking to Jessy right now. She just broke news to me that this semester, she's probably going abroad and leaving the country for school in London. We have this plan that eventually, all of us will just move to England and be together again. I won't see Tammy for three weeks. Six days.

Under the cut following this sentence, are a couple pictures of my new ugly hair and eight more pictures from London

Edit: Also, I would like to share with all of you, my favorite thing in the world, Cheese.

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 21:34:05 GMT

I've been home for three days and all my mother and I have been doing is fighting. Whudeva, whudeva, whudeva. I got half my tan back already. I've been playing Dog-opoly for the past two days with two ten-year-olds and a six-year-old. I get my permit, which I should have gotten two months ago, in two days. New York in eight days.

Here are six pictures from London

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 00:58:24 GMT

I said I wasn't going to update and then I updated and then I deleted it and now I am updating again, and this entry is seriously going to be my last one for a while or whatever. All I've had to eat all day is a bologna bagel sandwich. I've spent two out of the past forty-eight hours sleeping, and I feel like I'm half-asleep or half-dead or something. Last night was Sarah's surprise going-away party thing. We went downtown and uhh.. went clubbing at the Liquid Lounge because Courtney and Sonia convinced the bouncer that we were eighteen, we just didn't have I.D.'s. It was the dumbest thing ever, but a really, really great night. Now I'm waiting on Sarah and her mom to get home from Atlanta to bring me my double cheeseburger and chai latte.

Courtney, me, Regan, Kirsten, Sonia, Dominique, Sarah

Hahahhahaha, Liquid Lounge.

After the bouncer said, "Don't tell anyone, but it's a dry erase marker, so it comes off."

Me being the underdressed one.

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 16:28:47 GMT

I don't have any journal entries, and I'm not going to until I get back from England on July 5th. I'm not allowed to bring my camera with me, so I know what I will have seen and no one will see pictures. Exactly a month from yesterday. Bye.

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 21:38:05 GMT

Lyke omg, add me, add me, add me!